Author Archives: Damsel Nikki

One of the many joys of being bipolar is when you have all your shit stuffed into proverbial boxes and stored nicely away… then one of those little fuckers pops open and starts to spill out everywhere… then another and another! Next thing you know… you’ve become the anxiety filled, paranoid, overly emotional basket caseContinue reading “Stupid boxes”

So, I’ve been a little MIA. Not on purpose or because I was having some sort of mental breakdown… I just have worked entirely too much. 128.75 hrs. in 2 weeks, to be exact. This is WAY too much time at work. I only had a few grumpy moments, but overall… I handled it okay.Continue reading “Hey, girl, hey!”

Today is the first time I felt okay. I didn’t feel shattered or broken. I just laughed at the stupid shit in my life again. I am not grieving anymore. I was able to let the person who I was prior to 2021 free. I missed her. I honestly feared she would never return. She’sContinue reading “Feeling okay”

On a whim, I asked my best friend, Hilary, to accompany me on a trip to NYC. Unfortunately, she wasn’t able to. I knew this would be a long shot, but I tried. It set me off, though– not so much because she couldn’t come or even that she made plans to attend an eventContinue reading “The end of an era”

You guessed it, its 4:20 in the morning. Why am I awake? I am supposed to be writing a paper due 2 weeks ago when I fell ill. I promised my professor I would turn in by this afternoon. Have I started it? Absolutely not. I did at least look at the shit rubric thatContinue reading “0420”

Yep, still sick. Still coughing up gobs of demon goo. Eyeball still draining and red. Though, I don’t look as demonic. Maybe the COVID demon is finally growing tired of inhabiting this body. It’s been 11 days now. I should be better, but nope. The life force has been drained out of me. I shouldContinue reading “Cough that won’t end”

I seriously have no idea how I got to be so lucky to get so sick. It’s taking all my energy just to write. My palms are sweating, and I am having aversion to touch. Though, the coldness from my laptop feels nice. I am also running fever for the first time today. Needless toContinue reading “fever”

My eyes have turned red, and I am coughing up gobs of, I don’t even know what kind of slime. COVID has turned me into a fat demon! I swear I am the only one who gains weight when sick. I did this last time as well. On the upside, my face isn’t on fireContinue reading “COVID- a demonic plague”

Yep, that’s right… this bitch has COVID. WTF?!? And this post is pretty dark; you’ve been warned. So… this is what happened; I presented with a completely different problem and left with that problem semi-taken care of and the vid. I needed pain control and IV antibiotics. The pain part wasn’t exactly cured because, well….Continue reading “Death and the monster”